Picture me in 2013: I was a 37 year old married mother of two, and my younger son Quinn, who is medically complicated, pretty high needs, and developmentally delayed, was 9. It was the middle of the day, he and I were in his bedroom, in a fight, and I was losing. Badly.
The names he was calling me were getting worse, “CUNT!” he screamed at me, and then laaaaaughed. I was getting more and more angry, while he seemingly found it entertaining. …
“Why doesn’t she date him?” My boyfriend asked as we watched the man hosting our friend’s birthday party drive the kids around in a wagon pulled behind his atv in his giant, fully equipped, beautiful backyard.
“I dunno, too nice?” I replied.
By the end of the night, my bf knew what I meant.
Our host was sitting with his back to the fire he had built and maintained all night, because his back was killing him.
In a follow up conversation with my girlfriend I mentioned that I noticed her friend did not let his back pain slow him…
They generally have no idea what I’m talking about and think it has something to do with sex.
Their curiosity is aroused.
I ask them if they have situations in their lives that they Don’t Like that they come up against, repeatedly.
The answer is, inevitably, yes. That’s the “existential” part.
Existence is like that.
There’s a part of us that kinda wants that “Don’t Like” situation that keeps coming up. There’s something we are getting out of it, if it repeats.
That’s the “kink” part… we actually like the habitual beating that life is giving us, in some small…
I used the popular catchphrase “self-care” to get your attention.
The first thing I want to do is throw the phrase out the window. It has become conflated with things like Epsom salt baths, meditation, and spa days, and it now reeks of white privilege. In my opinion.
That one makes me wanna hurl too. So many conditions attached to love, most of the time. Leaves too much room for your subconscious to convince you that you don’t deserve it. Also affected by white privilege.
So, Word Police, what’ll it be then?
After all, that’s our job as parents, isn’t…
The process of magic can look infinitely different, but it works like this:
The result of the ask is dependent on the state and force…